I was reading the xanga of a guy who was getting married. I realized that men really grow up when they have their own family... same as mine.

I had been so proud that I didn't change much throughout the years. I had always been so proud that I was still the Carmen before - cheerful, outgoing, pure and full of passion of life.

These days, I realize how much I have changed after I met him. I am still the one who follows the message of God to have passion for life and to love the others, but I reckon I am not as outgoing as before.

Maybe I am old. Maybe I am tired because of work. Or maybe it's because of him.

I don't know whether my change is good or bad. In my own value system, to be outgoing is better. But I don't really have a slice feeling of sadness even I know I am less outgoing than before. Or maybe, I am even happier than before coz I have him in my life.

So what's wrong with the changes? I don't mind how much my friends miss me. I don't mind how many photos I take with my friends. I don't care how many messages are left on my facebook. My friend, all I care is how big you smile when I see you on the photos; how much love I can bring you to when you need me. Although I may talk less, although I may hang out less, my love to you all never become less.

I love you all.

只想快點離開這個鬼地方...

還有這麼久....還有兩個月....

Just realized that one of my good friends in secondary school who studied in the US is going to have her wedding banquet in Four Seasons Hotel.

I have another friend who had his wedding in that hotel, but he is a developer and a trillionnair I guess.

: p

自從 Facebook 興起之後﹐好像比較冷清了。

不過我會一直些的﹐始終兩者的性質不同﹐這裡是我把感受和生活點滴寫下來的地方。

近來發現自己的生活跟以前不同了﹐一是因為工作﹐二是因為在家裡對著的人不同了。

新的生活我開始適應下來﹐是時候又要重整自己的生活﹐想一想自己的將來了。

首先要找本書看﹐接著是學車﹐到了秋天就要學騎馬。

至於找工作呢。。。還在想。。。 真的不知道究竟是否值得放棄在AA裡建立了的一切。。。